Purple Screaming Monkey

Music: Christmas msuic is running through my head for some reason... "Chestnuts roasting on an open fire..."
Feeling: Bored... a car, a car! My kingdom for a car!

I wish I was 11 years old all over again so I can go out and trick or treat right now. Instead, I feel like not reading (no big surprise there) and going out, but because of a lack of a car, there is nothing that I can do! Damn it all. People have to live closer to me... as in walking distance.

But onto other topics.

Thanks to Suzie, I'm now addicted to some amine show called Inyuwasa. (I think that's how you spell it) I used to hate anime, but now I can't wait until I see the next espoisde. It's so addicting. Suzie, Domnique and I were glued to the computer screen until 3 in the morning after my shift at work. I can't stop watching... Domnique and I are now converts.

Happy Halloween!

Music: My printing shaking on the table
Feeling: So fresh and so clean

I found out that if I deprive myself of sleep for a while, I can protect myself from bad bews.
Like how I found out that my mark from developmental pysh is a wonderful 65%, the lowest mark I have ever gotten at university. I don't care right now.

Music: Something by Weakerthens is ending and now I'm switching to... Love Shack?! Talk about contrast. Now I'll just switch to the Shrek soundclip. "YOU MONSTER! NOT THE GUMDROP BUTTONS!"

My hair is falling out an extremly quickly rate. I was half heartedly cleaning off my desk by taking off my textbooks off the desk and stacking them on the floor since I have a puny desk to work on (It's amzing how much cleaner my desk looked like after that) when I realized that my hair covered my floor like a mat. My hair is also all over my bed, desk and clothes while I was throwing things into the laundry pile.

This is a little scary. At least I can comfort myself with the fact that women never go bald. Out hair just gets really thin.

Okay, no more delaying catch up readings. I must read those chapters. After my shower. And more cleaning up my room since there's still hair all over the place. And dust. And some important phone calls that I've been putting off for sometime. And trying to figure out how to save space in my room since it's tiny. Wendy is trying to make me give up my bed to get more space, but there is no way I'm giving up my queen sized bed. I'm to attached to it. I even gave it a name, Heavenly Comfort. But somehow, I have to make enough room to move in a corner deak. Or at least a bigger desk. Maybe if I get rid of that really big and ugly bookcase... can we say Ikea?

Music: Boys in the Hood... funny song... but yet, my feminist side protests
Feeling: Crappy

I'M FINISHED MIDTERMS!!!
Yay.
But then I got my final exam schedule. Which sucks. I finish all my exams in one week, but I write 4 of them in a row. And all of a sudden, these meetings are all over the place.

But I feel like crap. because a wish of mine is so not true. (No, it's NOT midterm results) Hm. Well at least I know ahead of time.

On other random thoughts

I finally watched my first eposide of Sex and the City. It was okay, but I don't see what the big fuss is so... I lied and said that it was great, but really it wasn't that funny. Maybe it has to grow on me like Friends did. Or Matt has to stop forwarding pieces of it, claiming that I have to watch this "great" part. It'll be part of my Christmas marathons. I have Star Wars, the orignal ones lined up (I don't think it'll happen), Lord of the Rings and I think Steinfield. And if I get the Undergrads DVD collection and a dvd player, that's another marathon right then and there.

And Tim Lee has the best blog. It's so very detailed and funny because I know Tim. I know how he freaks out over certain things. I can just see his expression when he describes certain events in his life. (Gotta love the change room story Tim. You are free to dip into my alcohol collection that is at your house this weekend. Just don't drink it all.)

Music: Everything is Fair by Tribe "You don't have to say a word"
Feeling: Dance to the music

OMG, IT'S NOT TRUE
Cara, just stop. I think I'll forgot about everything by studying really hard for my last exam. Which is isn't working. Argh

I'll be fine after Tuesday night. Really. The weather is supposed to be sunny. Yay sunshine!

Music: The Gingerman soundclip from Shrek
"Do you know the muffinman???"

Finished stats. One more midterm to go. Relaxing... beautiful weather... a bath... I love this... until I see my marks, but that's not until later.

Music: Something from the Fusion CD... not that bad
Feeling: So I really want to study??? I hate stats

To push back stats, I'm blogging. I noticed that my blogging has become daily since my exams started.
Anywoo, I'll just dream of what I'll do next week starting at 7:00 pm on Tuesday.

Check out new student pub right after my last exam
Go to movie, try to convince people to watch Team Amercia (Everyone is invited to the movie of course :)

Korean BBQ right after class and this time, we'll get there early. Everyone is invited, but it's get your own ride since I have already claimed room in Rob's van and the rest of social pysch people.

A party at Cheryl's. Yay.

And now... I can start having lunch with my dear friends on the only day when I'm not running around class... every Thursday. :)

Music: Nothing for now... but that song that goes "Achoo, I think I'm getting the flu" is stuck in my head
Feeling: Don't want to study anymore

My textbooks for soaked from my water bottle that was slightly opened in my backpack. I wouldn't mind so much if they didn't cost so much and if it wasn't Umair's textbook that I borrowed from him.

Things I'll Do When Midterms Are Over on Tues, October 26 at 7:00 pm

- have dinner and watch a movie
- take a looong bath
- SLEEP
- Cook something homemade for moi
- Try to quit coffee
- go out and see my friends
- catch up on readings
- play this really addictive internet game where I have to help a drunk guy walk
- have more meals with friends
- more sleeping
- clean room
- wonder, do I really want to go to Blue Moutain for a week for a ski trip? Hmm...
- go shopping and buy more sweaters since I'm freezing. I don't understand why
- figure out what I want to be be for Halloween

Music: Something from Dashboard, hmmm. do I really like Dashboard anymore?
Feeling: Cold

As in Elena's post

Please let it be true... please. And if it is, Cara, you shall be my new thrapist, Umair is useless.

I realized that when I'm at home, I rearrange my posters in my room to avoid studying, especailly when it's stats. I also have a tendency to clean up my room. I picked up my clothes and found t-shirts and tank tops that were missing. I have plowed through 2 chapters of reserach and am aiming to look at probablity this evening. I think I'll like that chapter, it seems okay and easy... and it's all based on gambling, something that I understand enough of as not to lose a lot of money on.

And I refuse to go out until my midterms are done. Going out will be going to study with friends at night. So do not tempt me with offers of movie maratons, dinners (I always end up staying for 4 hours), parties and other such.

Music: Something from the Shrek soundtrack
Feeling: More relaxed

While studying, I get munchies. And I realized with certain people, the food cravings I get are really specific.

I have found out that when I study with Matt, not only do we end up talking most of the time, but I get major ice cream cravings, which start Matt's, which gets us talking about if we should go to Sobey's or Food Basics at night, which just reinforces talking.
Me: I feel like ice cream...
Matt: So do I... what kind?
Me: I don't know... wait, green tea ice cream!
Matt: *Drools* Yeah... green tea ice cream
Me: Yum. Let's go to Food Basics
Matt: We need a car, I refuse to go out at night in Scarborough.
Me: Damn it.
Matt: Get a car, you commute to school
Me: I'm sorry, we all can't be rich snobs who can eat an entire bucket of ice cream alone in less then a week and afford a car, plus the insurance and the gas, plus the repairs and someone like you who sees people with cars as a way to get ice cream so that they eat another bucket of ice cream alone
Matt: Okay, FIRST of all... wait, Lynn has a car...

And so it goes on. The thing is, everytime I'm with him, we get free stuff. Last time we got free parfaits from Aramark.

With Naliah, studying with her is fine, but then I get cravings for fresh pineapples and mangos, even in the winter when I can't get them.

Me: Let's take a break
Naliah and I: Gossip about things that I can't write about
Naliah: I'm hungrey, let's take a walk
Me: I need food too
*While walking
Naliah and me: Agree that food services at school sucks, especailly on weekends
Naliah: You know what I want right now? Strawberries!
Me: No, mangos! And Pineapples!
Naliah: Yeah! And papaya...

This just makes us more annoyed about food outlets on campus and off campus as well on how much we're getting sick of Tim Horten's.

With Suzie, we usually don't shut up and we both get major muffin, coffee and tea cravings.

Insert a convo here
Me: I feel like food.
Suzie: I want a coffee... but I should get a tea... but want coffee
Me: Mmmm.... coffee with a muffin. Yummy.
Suzie: Yes, but with a carrot muffin
Me: That's it, I'm going to the H-caf to get a coffee and muffin
Suzie: Can you get me a coffee to? No, wait, a tea. No, coffee. No tea.
Me: Just get the bloody coffee
Suzie: But it's so bad for you! And since when were you a Brit?
Me: *In English accent* You want a coffee and you know it
Suzie: Yeah, I do want a coffee

With Umair, we just talk all the time. There is not food cravings. Everyone else is bad for my healthy eating plan that my mom is worried about and Umair is bad for studying.

Music: The Dyselxic Porn Star by Morcheeba. How I love Morcheeba
Feeling: Cold

I want to keep studyingfar away from me for the next 4 minutes that I'm writing a second blog in one day. I took one minute to scrol down my msn list, 5 mintues to reply to the B45 forum (Which I have to... grrr... I hate doing things when I'm forced to) and now 4 minutes to blog.

Well let me start off by saying that I'm cold. I can barely feel my feet, but yet my parents insist on keeping the windows open all day. To let in the brisk fall wind and smell I guess. I don't mind the smell of fall and Halloween, but I sure hate that brisk wind when I step on the cold tiles of the washroom in the mornings.
I'm cold because of that or because I'm sitting on my ass and not moving while the beautiful fall weather goes on being beautiful while I'm stuck inside studying. My $20 000 and more degree better be worth it all, after valuble time that I shall never get again as I study and increasing my chance of getting a heart attack as I stress over midterms. As my mom continously reminds me, you don't get your youth back and as Dorian Grey says (Or is it Lord Henry?), there is nothing like youth. (Of course, when my mom says that, she means that I have to get a move on with finding nice Korean boys. She actually asked Wendy if I was meeting any nice Korean guys. Then I decide to freak her out by saying I did meet a Korean guy... that's equally white washed as me, but with worst Korean. Ah the expression.)

Argh, have to finish off chapter that I've been looking at all day. Stupid chapter 3.

Music: None

I have random songs stuck in my head. Mostly Escape by Pina Colada and White Flag by Dido. I can't get them out.

but Happy Thanksgiving! May you not eat turkey for the rest of the week for my friends that do eat turkey. And for the others who don't, may you eat heartily on rice and other yummy food that only comes out for special holidays.

Random Note
I like tea in cold weather with hand picked apples that are fresh :)

Music: Escape by Pina Coloda. I love it because it's so cheesy
Feeling: SIck

I never knew that stress could manifest itself into physical side effects. Killer stomach pains and I just want to go sleep and not study.
I don't think I can take this anymore... but once exams are over, I'm going to never leave my bed ever again. Just once to head over to the dinner Umair is telling me to go to.
Need sleep. I think today was the first time I fell asleep in class. And I was sitting at the front too.

Muisc: You Belong To Me... scary title if you ask me, but then I think it's funny that romance in media is associated with stalking... but anyway
Feeling: Sleepy. Matt's window glows and Foley is freezing

I am home sweet home.

I miss my house. I miss homemade meals that are Korean. I'm willing to try kimchee at any age now.

So happy. Happiness is having my queen sized bed named Heavenly Comfort. Also discovering that you can rip apart the couch to make a bed at Foley. That I fell off a lot, but it wasn't the ground. No more couches for moi.

Music: Something by Lifehouse, but it's switiching to My Beloved Monster
Feeling: Argh and argh and throw in some happy sunshine

I think my parents are getting even more suspious of any people that drop me off. Suddeny I have to be at home at 10:00 pm all of a sudden. And something about my hat that I waer everyday. They don't like it for some reason. Something about rap. (I don't understand them sometimes. They leave James alone)

Some Great Things About Wearing a Hat That's To Big For Your Head

1. You don't have to worry about tweezing your eyebrows as the hat hides them. That saves a lot of time!

2. Covers up bad hair days

3. Hell, you don't have to comb your hair ever, the hat will cover it.

4. Limits your field of vision so it gives you a good excuse of why you didn't see some people that you don't like

5. Excellent for covering your eyes as you sretch out to take a nap on top of your textbooks in the middle of studying outside on the grass

6. After a while your friends will fail to recognize you when you take it off

7. It's easy for your friends to find you in a big crowd when you wear your hat

8. It's a point of interest and convos

9. Lots of fun running away from Eggie

10. Best of all, it will hide your very short bangs until they grow out